cmetryme
Extremely helpful member
- Joined
- Nov 3, 2013
- Messages
- 1,030
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 03/2008
- Country
- US
- State
- TX
Yesterday was a fairly good day.morning started out OK.
Level 4 pain so I didn't wake up screaming like most morning's. So I disided I would go to the grocery store. Went to get veggies n meat for dinner. Should b a short trip. Walked around the outside of the isles as I get shocked by both side's of the isle from the shelving and other folks shopping carts. It was still tazering me so I try to hurry.I head to the check out register knowing its going to hurt and trigger my fibro and sfn. I run by the self check out as it is all stainless steel. Im at register and getting shocked by the scale. She asked me if I would buy a bag for hunger? Not thinking I said yes as I do support the homeless. Well this added more time in the store. By this time I have had most of my energy drained. I then staggered thru the first set of automatic doors that some else opened. Staggered thru the next set to the outside. Thinking by the time I get to my truck I would be far enough away from the stainless. I crossed street and was going Togo down again.with my head shaking,whole body throbbing and on fire I just leaned as far forward as I could and my legs got me to the handicapped parking spot n my truck. I had to grab on to the bed with the plastic on it so I wouldn't fall down. So at this point I'm hurting really bad. As I have skin lupus the sun is now burning me making it even worse. Got grocery and myself in the truck. I passed out in front seat for 15 minutes. Woke up and was coming to and feeling much better so I set there 15 minutes longer to make sure I'm OK to drive and not kill someone. I'm sure god planned all this for me so I won't die if I have a reck. Feeling good I drive toward home and bam the head shaking comes again. So I'm telling myself as I'm driving stay wake you only have 5 more blocks. I made it home safe! Just sat in truck with cell phone in hand just in case. Kept saying stay awake. Sat there 15 minutes came to. This lasted about a 1\2 hour and I felt much better made some lunch thinking I need food.ate and felt better. About 1hour later the pain in my arm was so bad I just sat and cried for about 30 minutes. As I took all the meds at 7am I had nothing. So back to walking the fence line in the back yard. In about 1hour the pain level went from a 8 to a live with it level 4. Called pain mgt dotor to see what the hold up is on the subsys from pharmacy. She said that because she cut dose in half the manufacturer would have to re-approve it. So no pain meds. By dinner I was at level 2 after my eve morphine dose. Cooked dinner with my glass pots and plastic handle pan. Stayed up to midnight at a level 4 pain.just above what the morphine can handle. At this point thats called break thru pain. Being I have no subsys I must just continue to suffer thru this.
I'm hoping by telling this story about my daily life some other will see that if I can go on living with this and the fibro you can to. Maybe even make a call to your doctors and ask them about this. I need the research. Y'all hang in there, tomorrow brings a new day and a new adventure. Thank for trying to help.
Level 4 pain so I didn't wake up screaming like most morning's. So I disided I would go to the grocery store. Went to get veggies n meat for dinner. Should b a short trip. Walked around the outside of the isles as I get shocked by both side's of the isle from the shelving and other folks shopping carts. It was still tazering me so I try to hurry.I head to the check out register knowing its going to hurt and trigger my fibro and sfn. I run by the self check out as it is all stainless steel. Im at register and getting shocked by the scale. She asked me if I would buy a bag for hunger? Not thinking I said yes as I do support the homeless. Well this added more time in the store. By this time I have had most of my energy drained. I then staggered thru the first set of automatic doors that some else opened. Staggered thru the next set to the outside. Thinking by the time I get to my truck I would be far enough away from the stainless. I crossed street and was going Togo down again.with my head shaking,whole body throbbing and on fire I just leaned as far forward as I could and my legs got me to the handicapped parking spot n my truck. I had to grab on to the bed with the plastic on it so I wouldn't fall down. So at this point I'm hurting really bad. As I have skin lupus the sun is now burning me making it even worse. Got grocery and myself in the truck. I passed out in front seat for 15 minutes. Woke up and was coming to and feeling much better so I set there 15 minutes longer to make sure I'm OK to drive and not kill someone. I'm sure god planned all this for me so I won't die if I have a reck. Feeling good I drive toward home and bam the head shaking comes again. So I'm telling myself as I'm driving stay wake you only have 5 more blocks. I made it home safe! Just sat in truck with cell phone in hand just in case. Kept saying stay awake. Sat there 15 minutes came to. This lasted about a 1\2 hour and I felt much better made some lunch thinking I need food.ate and felt better. About 1hour later the pain in my arm was so bad I just sat and cried for about 30 minutes. As I took all the meds at 7am I had nothing. So back to walking the fence line in the back yard. In about 1hour the pain level went from a 8 to a live with it level 4. Called pain mgt dotor to see what the hold up is on the subsys from pharmacy. She said that because she cut dose in half the manufacturer would have to re-approve it. So no pain meds. By dinner I was at level 2 after my eve morphine dose. Cooked dinner with my glass pots and plastic handle pan. Stayed up to midnight at a level 4 pain.just above what the morphine can handle. At this point thats called break thru pain. Being I have no subsys I must just continue to suffer thru this.
I'm hoping by telling this story about my daily life some other will see that if I can go on living with this and the fibro you can to. Maybe even make a call to your doctors and ask them about this. I need the research. Y'all hang in there, tomorrow brings a new day and a new adventure. Thank for trying to help.