Today I had my last follow-up with a neurologist. After an EMG, brain MRI, and biopsy, he said my nerves look great. The scariest things have been ruled out. I think what I’m dealing with is very likely fibromyalgia, but I think whatever it is will be manageable. My symptoms skyrocket when I’m panicked, but after hearing this relieving news, they’ve been down to just an uncomfortable annoyance, which I can deal with. Two solid months of fight or flight mode had me in a loop of agony. I was genuinely suicidal. I can honestly say I’m doing much better. I’m taking it easy for a while, and will eventually try to find some suitable work, even if it’s just a few days a week. I’m taking nothing for granted and am starting anew with so much gratitude.