hope23
Senior member
- Joined
- May 16, 2017
- Messages
- 238
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 00/0000
- Country
- NZ
Well i have had ingrown big toenails for around 15years ish and i have always managed to deal with them myself clipping away the problem bits and avoiding infection. Well one bit i have not been able to deal with and the toe has been infected on and off for 6months.
So i finally bit the bullet and booked in to get the minor op to deal with it. I know it needed to be done and was the right decision. I was prepared for it to be painful/sore(nothing new about pain around here
). I got it done Tuesday afternoon, yesterday(Wednesday) wasnt too bad, today(thursday) holy f... moly!!!! I have two furbabies who are very excited in the mornings to see me which is normal and my 30kg labrador unintentionally was bounding a bout and stood/jumped on my toe that got operated on!!! I have not screamed out in pain in a blimmin long time, this then led to a 20min crying session sitting on the floor. The past four weeks have been brutal on all fronts, Ive been trying so hard to pull myself out of this hole im in and keep positive etc but at the moment i just cant. Im so over it all - the pain, the pills, the doctors visits, the judgement from ignorant a-holes.
I dont want to live like this, cus its not living, its just barely existing.
I want to be able to get out of bed in the morning without having to roll out and crawl to the shower, i want to be able to play with my dogs when i want to. I want to be able to go on a date or out for the day without having to schedule my day around the things i need to do to be able to just exist. I want to not continuously cancel plans because my pain levels are out of control or the fatigue is so debilitating today that moving my limbs takes a heroic amount of energy and effort.
I want to be able to have a relationship and not worry that my health is going to eventually be too much for that person.
Im 29 years old and the thought of living the rest of my life like this is crippling
I know i need to stay positive and am usually pretty good at it but at the moment everything is just all too much
Just needed to vent, i do see/have seen a counsellor on and off and for some stuff it helps other stuff not so much. I just needed to vent
Were any of you quite 'young' when you got sick? I was 22
It doesnt matter what age you are no one deserves to have to live like this. I guess im also grieving the things i wanted from my life and that were/are important to me, i feel like theyve been stolen
So i finally bit the bullet and booked in to get the minor op to deal with it. I know it needed to be done and was the right decision. I was prepared for it to be painful/sore(nothing new about pain around here
). I got it done Tuesday afternoon, yesterday(Wednesday) wasnt too bad, today(thursday) holy f... moly!!!! I have two furbabies who are very excited in the mornings to see me which is normal and my 30kg labrador unintentionally was bounding a bout and stood/jumped on my toe that got operated on!!! I have not screamed out in pain in a blimmin long time, this then led to a 20min crying session sitting on the floor. The past four weeks have been brutal on all fronts, Ive been trying so hard to pull myself out of this hole im in and keep positive etc but at the moment i just cant. Im so over it all - the pain, the pills, the doctors visits, the judgement from ignorant a-holes.I dont want to live like this, cus its not living, its just barely existing.
I want to be able to get out of bed in the morning without having to roll out and crawl to the shower, i want to be able to play with my dogs when i want to. I want to be able to go on a date or out for the day without having to schedule my day around the things i need to do to be able to just exist. I want to not continuously cancel plans because my pain levels are out of control or the fatigue is so debilitating today that moving my limbs takes a heroic amount of energy and effort.
I want to be able to have a relationship and not worry that my health is going to eventually be too much for that person.
Im 29 years old and the thought of living the rest of my life like this is crippling
I know i need to stay positive and am usually pretty good at it but at the moment everything is just all too much
Just needed to vent, i do see/have seen a counsellor on and off and for some stuff it helps other stuff not so much. I just needed to vent
Were any of you quite 'young' when you got sick? I was 22
It doesnt matter what age you are no one deserves to have to live like this. I guess im also grieving the things i wanted from my life and that were/are important to me, i feel like theyve been stolen
(not that I was all that hungry to begin with)
on a great start to quitting. You should be so dang proud of yourself.
