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[Auriel]

How tall are you harpy? I'm 5 "3
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[Auriel]

@JayCS , does your Dr think that you're very seriously ill then? unless they're being thorough (which is always a good thing ) cos they're sending you to oncology??? I have to go to one too, they told me today there was some cancer (in the histology from the operation i had few weeks ago) I would even consider moving to a different country maybe (if I had knew my dr would be a thorough one) thorough drs are EVERYTHING!!!!

 

[Harpy]

How tall are you harpy? I'm 5 "3
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I am 160cm. Think 5ft 3”, back in the day I was 164cm.

 

[JayCS]

@JayCS , does your Dr think that you're very seriously ill then? unless they're being thorough (which is always a good thing ) cos they're sending you to oncology???

He doesn't know what to think, he interprets my CoV-symptoms etc. as B-symptoms cos he's closed-minded and blind to my CoV-overreactions. The surgeon looking at my mamilla swelling today said he thinks that is nothing, unless my symptoms are B-symptoms, so we agreed to wait, and see what oncology says first and if in meantime the swelling remains or gets worse.
The reason for me to go thru with the checks is not cos I believe they are B-symptoms, it's because I can't be 95% certain they're not. And I always do all and any checks that are suggested. Oncology and lungs are the 2 specialities I've never been to, so it's interesting for my curiosity. As ever it's all just playing rummy to me. Even chemo vs. praps just accepting possible death. Surgery and radiotherapy would be things I'd probably try. So it's important for me to find the stuff early on, if I can. I've faced death quite a few times in my life, deliberately, accidentally, and believed I might die for some reason with 25: so every single day is a godsend, and "seriously ill" is relative.

I have to go to one too, they told me today there was some cancer (in the histology from the operation i had few weeks ago) I would even consider moving to a different country maybe (if I had knew my dr would be a thorough one) thorough drs are EVERYTHING!!!!

I really hope yours are. . Luckily here all insurances will pay for a 2nd opinion, I bet the NHS doesn't.

 

[cookiebaker]

How tall are you harpy? I'm 5 "3
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I am 160cm. Think 5ft 3”, back in the day I was 164cm.

well, arent we just a bunch of peas in a pod?
I am 5' 4" with the tennis shoes on.

 

[Auriel]

We're Lilliputian's!.

 

[Auriel]

Yeah, I guess you'll just have to see what oncology says, what are b symptoms? And no Jay nhs won't pay for 2nd opinions (that much is true). I've got my specialists , so I'm ok with that (the other drs that denied the cancer, I'm not seeing those at the moment ) I speak to the other ones instead now)

 

[JayCS]

b symptoms

Certain "secondary" symptoms that warrant suspicion of and checking for lymphomas: night sweats, appetite and weight loss . Also fever, which I haven't got... rather the opposite - so no lymphoma, sez I ;-P.

 

[Auriel]

Yes, jay's ok, I like it, it rhymes

 

[JayCS]

no lymphoma, sez I

Sigh - my wife and my GP are sending me to a gyn. And if I hadn't got a speedy appt. there tomorrow, they'd've put me directly in hospital. Can't a happy man have his peace? I actually have the referral for hospital too, and can use that to get to the gyn quicker.
Good thing is - my wife is getting all kind and loving, is listening to me, is talking to me properly, thinking about life... and crying. First when I was giggling away, enjoying her "new" attitude, she tried repeatedly saying: "It's not funny", until I said: let me stay happy, my body doesn't need tears, it needs my happiness and laughter, it doesn't need worry and depression, it needs my drive. Then she at last got it. And she's actually said she wants to come into the garden and have a look at and share my new antics and pranks.... let's see how long she can bear with my bubbling...

 

[Auriel]

Aw, Mrs. jay is crying , it's amazing how when people have health scares how much people around them have "wake up calls," and their value (and everything about them) goes up (I think it should be like every day though, but we human we forget) Yes agreed a healthy body is a happy body, I'm gonna imagine my cells with smiley faces + tummy slammng into eachother (like sumo wrestlers)

 

[JayCS]

I'm gonna imagine my cells with smiley faces + tummy slammng into eachother (like sumo wrestlers)

Yeeeeeaaay! Mine too! - Yeah, strange, innit, for me it feels like she's realizing what life's about at last.
I could say I have no choice but every day to know what life's about, but let's say: I have, but I choose it.

 

[JayCS]

she's realizing what life's about at last

I hope more than a momentary lapse of .... lunacy.... - or at least more often now.
Why-oh-why do we anxious people tend to lose a good life to worrying about losing a good life?
I guess cos in the end most people are more productive when under pressure to perform.
To the disadvantage of the more sensitive where anxiety takes over and paralyses performance.
Praps also applicable to anxiety & worry caused by manipulation, where people make us do things...
I wished I/we could have been taught that earlier instead of learning the hard way how that works and how to get out. But the pressurers are interested in that not becoming too well known, cos it'd deflate their power. My favourite all-purpose antidote for deflating them is saying "I feel put under pressure by...". In my experience most are surprised at being unmasked and exposed. If they're sly, they can kick the ball back by psychologizing like "ever thought about why you're put under pressure so easily.." Quick blunt answer might be kicking it straight back: "because of certain people doing it too much"....?
Oh heck, how did I get on that track? Supps and back out eating while gardening in evening sun.

 

[JayCS]

how did I get on that track?

Ah, now I know: Cos some housing people are doing me wrong, in the wrong themselves, making me angry (not anxious at all). And my GP is also making me angry, not listening to my 20 new symptoms, but telling me it can't be CoV or T4. But his referrals are still sensible. He'll be getting his dues kindly, the others will not be getting them that kindly, if I can help it...

 

[Auriel]

20 more symptoms Drs seem to like one or 2 symptoms in just 1 area (makes them more comfortable) isn't it cool how we can talk about so many other different things on this forum