Lana
Senior member
- Joined
- Apr 6, 2014
- Messages
- 223
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 05/2012
- Country
- CA
- State
- ON
I would like to now if anyone is having difficulty working, The demands of having a job is over whelming. That causes alot of stress to me, even though they tried to accommodate by reducing my hours, I still couldn't manage to get out of the door. I had to try to walk normal and fight the pain and the fatigue. I did not want people to see my stiffness and the lack of energy. So I had to put on a happy face. I had to stand and talk to my clients when everything in my body was telling me to sit down. The pain in my back and hips was severe, because I would ignored what my body was saying I got nausea and cold and hot sweats, I couldn't allow my clients to see what I was going through. I told my self NO YOU HAVE TO FIGHT THIS, DONT LET THEM SEE, it was so powerful it was trying to tear me down. I would clutch my hands and hold my breath as they where talking to me. I had trouble listening to what they were saying, they would notice that, and say I just told you that, aren't you listening. When I got in my car I would put my head on the steering wheel clutching it tightly with my hands. I started to cry but then I knew I had to go see my next client. I would say to myself ok get a grip wipe your tears and lets go. This was a fight I could not win anymore , it was to strong and I was becoming to weak. I eventually surrenderd to Fibromyalgia and quit my job.