CatherineTheGreat
Member
- Joined
- Jun 1, 2015
- Messages
- 27
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 05/2015
- Country
- US
- State
- WA
I'm 19. I feel stuck. I hurt too bad to work. SSA denied me disability. I live with my parents on an $80 dollar monthly allowance.
I've barely dated and have no idea how I would even go about dating someone when I can hardly leave the house. I live in a somewhat rural area so that doesn't help my online dating prospects. I feel so very alone.
My social life is nearly nonexistent. I've got a couple of friends who I see about once a week and that's about it. One of them is kinda drifting off because I'm too sad and am "draining" (his word) to be around.
My life has just started and it feels like it's over. I was doing little community college, but I still haven't even finished high school. Now I doubt I could make it to class often enough to finish. Is there anyone else who got this shit young who can tell me how to handle this?
I'm a strong person. I used to climb, run, swim, do martial arts. I got straight A's in college while working full time AND doing after-school activities. But, I have not a clue how to handle this kind of pain and fatigue. It's too intense. Too frequent. Too pervasive. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm doomed to live with my parents forever, alone and in pain, with no one to hold me or love me. No diploma or degree. No career. Just a smudge on the bottom of a shoe.
I see my sisters, friends and old peers on facebook. Some are in college. Some have careers. Some are getting married, having kids. Some are traveling the world. I sit in my room, waking up in pain, crawling to my desk to find whatever I can to distract me from the pain until I go to sleep and do it all again the next day.
I don't really know what the point of it all is.
I've barely dated and have no idea how I would even go about dating someone when I can hardly leave the house. I live in a somewhat rural area so that doesn't help my online dating prospects. I feel so very alone.
My social life is nearly nonexistent. I've got a couple of friends who I see about once a week and that's about it. One of them is kinda drifting off because I'm too sad and am "draining" (his word) to be around.
My life has just started and it feels like it's over. I was doing little community college, but I still haven't even finished high school. Now I doubt I could make it to class often enough to finish. Is there anyone else who got this shit young who can tell me how to handle this?
I'm a strong person. I used to climb, run, swim, do martial arts. I got straight A's in college while working full time AND doing after-school activities. But, I have not a clue how to handle this kind of pain and fatigue. It's too intense. Too frequent. Too pervasive. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm doomed to live with my parents forever, alone and in pain, with no one to hold me or love me. No diploma or degree. No career. Just a smudge on the bottom of a shoe.
I see my sisters, friends and old peers on facebook. Some are in college. Some have careers. Some are getting married, having kids. Some are traveling the world. I sit in my room, waking up in pain, crawling to my desk to find whatever I can to distract me from the pain until I go to sleep and do it all again the next day.
I don't really know what the point of it all is.