Marvis
Distinguished member
- Joined
- Jan 28, 2017
- Messages
- 150
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 05/2016
- Country
- CA
- State
- ON
Do any of you struggle with self doubt around your own illness?? It's bad enough that we have to fight the stigma of an invisible illness, but I find myself playing mind tricks sometimes. For example, just before Christmas I started Effexor, and whether it was the drug or just that the weather was nice and dry and stable, I felt like my old self for about 3 weeks. I convinced myself, unconconsciously, that I was better. I ran around like a maniac, started making plans for things I would do now that I had more energy and less pain, and really convinced myself i was better. I did it again on the weekend. I went out with my husband for an over night date on Friday. I took extra Motrin because I was fighting a headache. I did a bit of walking, went out for a late dinner, even managed to drink wine and walk the 4 blocks back to hotel and felt fine. Woke up at 1AM and thought - maybe I'm not really sick, maybe I just need to get moving and make myself do things and have a more positive attitude. Doh! Woke up an hour later to electric shocks in my feet. Another hour late to cramps creeping up my legs. Two days later I'm still paying for it. Totally worth it, but jeez, why do I keep deluding myself? Does anyone else do this?
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