new to this forum and not diagnosed, but honestly i really think i have it and i have had it suggested a few years ago. i just need to complain because no one understands how i feel
i'm not even 20 yet and i feel like some days i just can't function. i'll have a week or more where it's hard to get myself out of bed because everything aches, but laying in bed makes everything ache... so i get up and maybe take a short walk, which just makes me feel worse again. it's been years now of trying to find a balance but eveyrhing is so exhausting because it just feels like absolutely nothing works. some days it's great, others i just don't want to wake up the next day.....it's seriously to the point where i'm suicidal again.
i can't get my thoughts straight, i struggle remembering people's names and street names etc. things that were sharp and quick to come to my mind, but now it feels like i can't even reach for the words or the ability to make sense sometimes. i wake up every day feeling like i never slept, my head already a mess, aches in my body that make me think i can't walk... no chance for me to start the day off well.
year after year it just keeps getting worse and worse. it's getting so tiring that no one gets how painful and exhausting it feels. it just gets shrugged off, that i'm young and i'm just lazy, that my parents are in more pain than me so i should keep it to myself. all this on top of family arguments, being treated like a therapist for my parents and trying to manage my own struggles with being bipolar and autism + adhd it's just all too much. doctors won't listen, they think i'm fine because i look fine, friends don't understand, parents just seem to not care, and i don't have a clue what to do for myself.
i'm not even 20 yet and i feel like some days i just can't function. i'll have a week or more where it's hard to get myself out of bed because everything aches, but laying in bed makes everything ache... so i get up and maybe take a short walk, which just makes me feel worse again. it's been years now of trying to find a balance but eveyrhing is so exhausting because it just feels like absolutely nothing works. some days it's great, others i just don't want to wake up the next day.....it's seriously to the point where i'm suicidal again.
i can't get my thoughts straight, i struggle remembering people's names and street names etc. things that were sharp and quick to come to my mind, but now it feels like i can't even reach for the words or the ability to make sense sometimes. i wake up every day feeling like i never slept, my head already a mess, aches in my body that make me think i can't walk... no chance for me to start the day off well.
year after year it just keeps getting worse and worse. it's getting so tiring that no one gets how painful and exhausting it feels. it just gets shrugged off, that i'm young and i'm just lazy, that my parents are in more pain than me so i should keep it to myself. all this on top of family arguments, being treated like a therapist for my parents and trying to manage my own struggles with being bipolar and autism + adhd it's just all too much. doctors won't listen, they think i'm fine because i look fine, friends don't understand, parents just seem to not care, and i don't have a clue what to do for myself.