No energy today. I feel useless, particlarly being a burdon to my husband. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I'M REMINDED Every DAY OF MY BODY, THE TIREDNESS, THE LACK OF FRIENDSHIPS, I'M SO LONELY, WHAT IF I DO REACH OUT. MY MEMORY IS BAD, I EMBARASSMENT MYSELF AND MAKE MY FAMILY FRUSTRAITED. COME ON MOM...