Day 5
Submitted by 1sweed on Mon, 04/22/2013 - 22:10
It seems that life is never ending in pain and suffering, but is often short in happiness and being pain-free. Now I am on the edge of a flare, but not yet into one. The sadness and stress in my life is running at a slow but continuous cycle of ups and downs that keep me in a state of confusion in trying to understand it all.
I often come here to tired to type out my messages and to tired to be able to hit the right keys. I have been pushing myself trying to get my household is some type of order in case I need to assist a friend of mine and in the end I find myself growing weaker from trying to maintain a constant high spirit additude for her well-being.
Have you ever tried to be cheerful all the time. To look upbeat and alive, when you were dead tired. To smile and laugh, and joke and have humor, when all you want to do is go to bed and sleep?
Well let me tell you it is tough. It is hard and it hurts. But my friend needs me to keep her happy and keep her from worrying and to chase the blues away.
Soon my job in doing this will be much harder and if I am having a hard time coping now, how will I handle myself then? Will I be patient and kind, or will I become short-tempered and mean? Will I be standing on two feet or will I be the one in bed needing help from my friends?
I do not know how I will be then, for in the days ahead I will keep coming here to share words and to greet new people and to feel at home here, far away from the outside world that has no understanding of what it is like to live one day at a time.
I often come here to tired to type out my messages and to tired to be able to hit the right keys. I have been pushing myself trying to get my household is some type of order in case I need to assist a friend of mine and in the end I find myself growing weaker from trying to maintain a constant high spirit additude for her well-being.
Have you ever tried to be cheerful all the time. To look upbeat and alive, when you were dead tired. To smile and laugh, and joke and have humor, when all you want to do is go to bed and sleep?
Well let me tell you it is tough. It is hard and it hurts. But my friend needs me to keep her happy and keep her from worrying and to chase the blues away.
Soon my job in doing this will be much harder and if I am having a hard time coping now, how will I handle myself then? Will I be patient and kind, or will I become short-tempered and mean? Will I be standing on two feet or will I be the one in bed needing help from my friends?
I do not know how I will be then, for in the days ahead I will keep coming here to share words and to greet new people and to feel at home here, far away from the outside world that has no understanding of what it is like to live one day at a time.
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