Day 26
Submitted by 1sweed on Sun, 02/09/2014 - 22:39
Today, was one of those days that I should have stayed in bed. By the time I get someone up and fed for the morning, I have very little time for me. The morning starts for someone at 10:00am, but I get up at 8:00am just to have a bit of free time to relax. Then lunch is at 1:00pm, for someone because they got up late. Since I am chief cook and bottle washer, I make lunch and wash dishes.
Then a hour or so, is spent running errends or cleaning house or trying to watch a favorite movie of which someone hates and sits and glares at me all through the movie.
By then the afternoon is shot and it is time for supper, which I must prepare and then do the clean up for, hoping to get time to relax before bedtime.
Each day starts and ends the same way, every day since Christmas with no breaks in between. I feel like I am at my wits end somedays and wonder how long I can do this on my own. Since someone has arrived my friends no longer stop by for a visit. I invite them but they don't have time, and going to church is out too because I can not leave someone for that long.
I find my fibro is making me more tired and pain is on the rise. Oh, I put up a brave front but weary is the main word. I try to get someone to join me in doing crafts or other activities, just for fun but someone is not interested or thinks the planned activities are dumb, or children's games.
This someone is 87 years old.I wish I knew the magic pill that could help someone be normal again, or help to be independant enough that doing things would be easy or something that someone would like to do alone.
If that could be I would be happier and someone would be happier and life would be less stressful and I could relax for a single moment on many a day like today.
Then a hour or so, is spent running errends or cleaning house or trying to watch a favorite movie of which someone hates and sits and glares at me all through the movie.
By then the afternoon is shot and it is time for supper, which I must prepare and then do the clean up for, hoping to get time to relax before bedtime.
Each day starts and ends the same way, every day since Christmas with no breaks in between. I feel like I am at my wits end somedays and wonder how long I can do this on my own. Since someone has arrived my friends no longer stop by for a visit. I invite them but they don't have time, and going to church is out too because I can not leave someone for that long.
I find my fibro is making me more tired and pain is on the rise. Oh, I put up a brave front but weary is the main word. I try to get someone to join me in doing crafts or other activities, just for fun but someone is not interested or thinks the planned activities are dumb, or children's games.
This someone is 87 years old.I wish I knew the magic pill that could help someone be normal again, or help to be independant enough that doing things would be easy or something that someone would like to do alone.
If that could be I would be happier and someone would be happier and life would be less stressful and I could relax for a single moment on many a day like today.
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