Day 20

This day was special because it is fall here and the leaves are so beautiful this year. It reminds me of when I was young and walked these same streets jumping into and wading through mountains of red and yellow, gold and brown leaves. I feel at home here now, where as a kid I never felt welcome.

I don't like looking back at my childhood, as it was not a happy one. I was a sad and lonely child, and it seems strange now that so many of the ones who did not want to know me when I was young, now are trying to be my friend.

So looking back can stir up memories that are best forgotten. Moving forward with a plan of action is much better in my odd way of thinking. It is kind of like the way our governments are run and thou we don't always like what is done, just one person can not stop the madness. And right now it seems all might be lost, but I still have hope, that things will be better in the years ahead.

While my life is not wanted I had planned, due to fibro, I can carry on and change my plans to suit my new slower paced life. And I will be happy. Well, most of the time. For when the pain eases and my heart can soar like the butterflies that float on the blue sky breeze.