My husband and children have all been "briefed" on the subject, so to speak. I am not entirely sure what all it entails, but we are all learning. I have had the condition since I was roughly 10. I had a very hard and horrifying childhood... Hence, the young age. It has been about 12 years now that things have been bad, more so I. The last year... Especially the last month! I have a harder and harder time getting up and staying awake. I think I have that chronic fatigue syndrome... I am having to admit that I can't be superwoman all of the time... Or at all lately! A month ago I was running a chainsaw and wood splitter... Now I need help to do almost everything! I am on 900mg of neuron tin, three times a day. It doesn't seem to help like it did a year ago... I feel, honestly, like the entire last year of my life has been a steady downward slide down the impassible mountain that is this disease! My depression is so bad now,it is almost suffocating! I thank you for your kind and wise words! It has been a big help! I also broke down and cried...hard... And told my husband just how useless I feel now! He is such a loving and understanding man, I couldn't have asked for a better husband! Last year when I was going through breast cancer, he was so supportive! He was also pushy when it came to me not feeling up to going to my treatments and eating and sleeping right, lol. My mother hen of a husband, lol.
I was taught that men and women both had "their own" work and expectations. The man is to do the hard and dangerous stuff and the woman is to clean the house and tend to the children. I am less worried about letting my husband down now, because I know he understands and still accepts and loves me! Our kids are so helpful, when they can be, lol, school and all. They nag once in a while, but they are such wonderful kids! I, on the other hand, have a VERY big problem with the fact that I can't live up to my own expectations! I am very unforgiving when it comes to laziness or messiness... And now sometimes all I can do is sit back and look at the clutter and mess. Then the cycle starts over... Could someone find me on Facebook and chat with me through messenger? That is easier for me to access than the website... Sorry the reply was so long coming! My name is Krystal lindsley... Looking for someone that I can vent to and maybe cry to...?