poem- feeling trapped in my own world

[Eff fibro]

Nobody sees it so nobody knows
I feel so alone
Trapped in a world of my own
But nobody sees it so nobody knows.

I look like a healthy young woman
And what I feel makes no sense.
It’s so hard to try to explain
I bite my tongue so not to complain
Or appear to want sympathy
So nobody knows but me.

If I open my world for others to see
…would they even believe?
No tests can prove
So many assume
That it cannot be real
…But they don’t feel what I feel.

Words I stumble to find
Feelings I can’t begin to describe
And somehow the more I try,
The more it seems I’ve lost my mind.

Some days I’ll just feel numb
Some days I’ll bite my tongue
I’ll stay trapped in this world
A seemingly healthy girl
…silently suffering
So that no one will think
That it’s just an excuse
That I choose to use.

Nobody sees it so nobody knows
I’m trapped in this world all alone.

SJW 10.13.14

 

[Eff fibro]

I wrote that earlier today. Its hard when I'm feeling all these weird stabbing pains and bee sting pains and I don't want to tell people because 1, I don't want to sound crazy, and 2, how are they supposed to respond? So its like burdening someone with info they can do nothing about. I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, being a negative Nancy, or looking for pity. But when I don't tell my loved ones (as we interact in daily life) what I'm feeling... I feel trapped in a world of my own, feeling so alone. I feel like I'm suffering silently, but I don't want to "suffer out loud" so I'm stuck in this unsettling place. That's what brought me here. I'm sure sharing my symptoms here and reading of others experiencing similar situations will help greatly. Thanks to everyone for contributing to the support here!

 

[nascarmike]

Really a great poem it describes oh so many of us perfectly. I know how you feel. Good luck and thanks for the poem.

 

[Loftpat]

Thanks for the poem. It does sum up what I feel as well. Best wishes and hugs.