Drummer76
Active member
- Joined
- Apr 15, 2018
- Messages
- 91
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 02/2006
- Country
- US
- State
- IN
I've been in kind of a slump lately,depression and not even leaving my house for several days at a time. I'm dealing with chronic pain that pain meds aren't helping so I have self medicating. Losing my dad back in December has been rough.
I have zero motivation to do anything,I'm barely eating once every 2 days and I've lost weight from it,my daughter has asked me if there is something I'm not telling her,it's noticeable.
I had a therapy appointment that was suppose to be in January but to come to find out,my insurance refuses to pay so no place will see me unless I self pay.
I'm at a loss. I really don't feel like I have much control any longer.
I'm suppose to see the pain Dr tomorrow but considering on skipping it and going off medication that is doing me no good to take.
I already know I'm very hard to treat as a patient since I am medication sensitive to just about everything. Makes me sick so that works against me in a lot of situations.
Sometimes I just feel like life isn't worth living but the alternative is not what I'd ever consider. To me it's selfish unless you have a terminal disease that is going to be extremely painful to live with until you pass.
I'm willing to do just about anything to get out of this and live a little bit of a more normal life. I sure as hell am not living.
I have zero motivation to do anything,I'm barely eating once every 2 days and I've lost weight from it,my daughter has asked me if there is something I'm not telling her,it's noticeable.
I had a therapy appointment that was suppose to be in January but to come to find out,my insurance refuses to pay so no place will see me unless I self pay.
I'm at a loss. I really don't feel like I have much control any longer.
I'm suppose to see the pain Dr tomorrow but considering on skipping it and going off medication that is doing me no good to take.
I already know I'm very hard to treat as a patient since I am medication sensitive to just about everything. Makes me sick so that works against me in a lot of situations.
Sometimes I just feel like life isn't worth living but the alternative is not what I'd ever consider. To me it's selfish unless you have a terminal disease that is going to be extremely painful to live with until you pass.
I'm willing to do just about anything to get out of this and live a little bit of a more normal life. I sure as hell am not living.
