terbaer
Senior member
- Joined
- Apr 3, 2014
- Messages
- 430
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 10/2010
- Country
- US
- State
- WA
I am home from work again. Today it's a colitis flare-up, fatigue and headache. I had put in my name on a job that sounded like it would be kind of fun and would be at a new agency. I think I'm ready to leave. Some other circumstances have made it very painful for me to work there. I am a budget manager now and really hadn't wanted to do it, but ended up there three years ago after the agency went through budget cuts. Long story short, the past 4-6 months have been horrible. I have been suffering from between 2-5 different flare symptoms related to fibro, chronic fatigue, colitis, anxiety, foggy brain, and headaches almost constantly. Thank goodness I have a fairly new boss who, although is very hard working (workaholic), has been very understanding of my health issues.
I received news from my neurologist that my headaches, neck, back, hips and feet pain are caused from severe stenosis and arthritis in my neck and spine. Basically, nothing magical to make me feel better. I had pretty much decided that I would likely be going the path of disability. I have one appointment left with the universities pain specialists in July, but not sure I hold out much hope. I was home Monday, same song different day, and had a message on my cel phone. I didn't notice until evening. So I listen to the message and sure enough, the job I thought would be fun, I'm asked if I want to interview.
I don't know if any of you believe this or not, but I do....I believe we are led and that when things happen, there is a reason. I decided to accept the interview. As I have told my family, I know I can't continue where I am. My boss knows it and I know it. Maybe a less stressful environment would make a difference. Stress is a huge trigger! If the man upstairs is opening a door, I will walk through it. If the door ends up being a dead end, I turn around and go back to my original direction. I'm scared, but I'm not. I'm scared of failing. I'm scared of getting that job. I'm scared of not getting that job. I'm going to continue on the journey and see where it leads me. My interview is next Wednesday, then I'm taking off with my husband and daughter for a sunny getaway before we meet up with family on the 9th for a aunt/uncle/cousin family reunion. My boss didn't want me to take the entire 2 weeks off so I'll fly back (extra cost) on Sunday and work for two days, then ride with my parents to meet up with my hubby.
I have faith that somehow, some way, wherever my journey is to go, it'll be okay. I had a mild heart attack in October, but my heart truly is healthy from what the doctors say. It was a muscle spasm, I believe due to stress. And even though I'm going through all of the flare-ups and fatigue, I'm a very healthy person (if that makes sense). I'm loved, I have a beautiful home (that could use a deep cleaning), I have sweet and adorable pets (a rescue horse named Gracie, 5 goofy but friendly chickens, 3 loving cats and a golden retriever who is my constant shadow), and a mini cooper that is a hoot to drive! My estranged son still breaks my heart, but I have faith he and I will work through whatever issues are causing him anger toward me.
If I'm offered the job, I'll be honest about my health, and will likely take it depending on their reaction. I'm not worried about my abilities to do the job. I have the skills, experience and personality to do well there. It's whether I can be reliable.
I know I've rambled on and on, and if you were interested enough to finish reading it. Thank you. Cross your fingers on July 2nd....We'll see if that is the next path in my journey of life....:lol:
I received news from my neurologist that my headaches, neck, back, hips and feet pain are caused from severe stenosis and arthritis in my neck and spine. Basically, nothing magical to make me feel better. I had pretty much decided that I would likely be going the path of disability. I have one appointment left with the universities pain specialists in July, but not sure I hold out much hope. I was home Monday, same song different day, and had a message on my cel phone. I didn't notice until evening. So I listen to the message and sure enough, the job I thought would be fun, I'm asked if I want to interview.
I don't know if any of you believe this or not, but I do....I believe we are led and that when things happen, there is a reason. I decided to accept the interview. As I have told my family, I know I can't continue where I am. My boss knows it and I know it. Maybe a less stressful environment would make a difference. Stress is a huge trigger! If the man upstairs is opening a door, I will walk through it. If the door ends up being a dead end, I turn around and go back to my original direction. I'm scared, but I'm not. I'm scared of failing. I'm scared of getting that job. I'm scared of not getting that job. I'm going to continue on the journey and see where it leads me. My interview is next Wednesday, then I'm taking off with my husband and daughter for a sunny getaway before we meet up with family on the 9th for a aunt/uncle/cousin family reunion. My boss didn't want me to take the entire 2 weeks off so I'll fly back (extra cost) on Sunday and work for two days, then ride with my parents to meet up with my hubby.
I have faith that somehow, some way, wherever my journey is to go, it'll be okay. I had a mild heart attack in October, but my heart truly is healthy from what the doctors say. It was a muscle spasm, I believe due to stress. And even though I'm going through all of the flare-ups and fatigue, I'm a very healthy person (if that makes sense). I'm loved, I have a beautiful home (that could use a deep cleaning), I have sweet and adorable pets (a rescue horse named Gracie, 5 goofy but friendly chickens, 3 loving cats and a golden retriever who is my constant shadow), and a mini cooper that is a hoot to drive! My estranged son still breaks my heart, but I have faith he and I will work through whatever issues are causing him anger toward me.
If I'm offered the job, I'll be honest about my health, and will likely take it depending on their reaction. I'm not worried about my abilities to do the job. I have the skills, experience and personality to do well there. It's whether I can be reliable.
I know I've rambled on and on, and if you were interested enough to finish reading it. Thank you. Cross your fingers on July 2nd....We'll see if that is the next path in my journey of life....:lol: