Celebration - I finally see all your kindest replies and responses!! Took so long to show up - strange!!
i have ordered my Magnesium Malate and am waiting for it to arrive ...
So kind all of you - thank you so much for letting me know am not alone - I believe I have really abused my body beyond my limits since I was a teen and didnt realise how hard I have pushed it ... now am paying back and living that consequence and choice of not honouring my own body's limitations.
Am at 40 years old but my body really feels like am 80 years or more! Some really bad or good days, none of which I can tell in advance.
Yes, hot water bottles, epsom salts, warm showers and baths and plenty of rests are my best friends now ... after all these years, only my hubby understands how hard it is even to drag myself to go pee and have to muster energy to crawl back into bed when flare ups happen. Now he begins to see all the energy used within a short span of time and then am flat out for the rest of the day - it's really energy management that keeps me going through the day!
For me at this time, it's also relearning about what's pain and what is not - think I have shut out what pain was and no longer recognise it since some time back - now am relearning to note what's pain and notice it oncoming to prevent flareups.
I shall see if there are any rheumatologists who believe there is such thing as fibromyalgia because here in Asia, it's hard to have doctors believe such conditions exist - sometimes really feel like telling them just living a week of my life and then tell me if this condition or my chronic pains I experience are REAL! LOL!
Everyone insists I need an official diagnosis but I know what I feel and experience in pains is real and I know my body better than anyone else will.
Now back to working getting better sleep (my insomnia is quite bad) and because I don't have enough sleep at nights, my day is pretty much gone ...
Big hugs for all of you meanwhile ... I do hope that you too will have many more good days and beautiful moments even amidst the pains we live with... so happy am not imagining things and am not alone!