Well this was one giant mistake posting here...I was expecting sympathy but compassion and maybe words of encouragement from people that know what I'm going through. As I stated the last three plus years I have gone through all this alone..and even though I follow my doctors orders, been sticking to healthy habits I manage to keep developing new ailments. I guess the only light in my life I can count on is my dig that I got the day I was diagnosed with cancer which is sad but she has been my glue. Love you Maize ..they say dog is man's best friend that's because it's God spelled backwards.