Miserable and overwhelmed

Its 5am, I was woke up at 4 by my dog to take him out... usually I don't think anything of it but today I'm just so damn tired of being woke up and never going back to sleep! I AM SO TIRED! it's so hard for me to fall asleep and stay asleep and here I am awake...again.. for the millionth time. I'M SO TIRED OF IT I COULD SCREAM.
My chest is literally filled with nothing but anger and frustration. I went to sleep like 3 hours ago why can't I just go back to sleep?
Because everything freaking hurts!
I'm just so tired of it all. Hurting all the time, no sleep, not being able to regulate my body temperature.
I just feel so miserable....
This illness just keeps beating me down. I'm so depressed, so tired, so overwhelmed, in so much pain. I just wish this was just a nightmare and I'd wake up healthy again.
Why am I so angry!? I really could just punch someone in the face at this moment I'm so fed up.